Visions, visions, visions are what has been hounding me for years. Projections of how my life would look like, where I would be, what I would do and how wonderful everything would be. The key word here is the word ‘would’ referring to my future on and on. I kept focusing on imaginary pictures, pictures which had nothing to do with who I was and with what I really desired at that time.
Focusing on what would happen in the future was constantly consuming my energy and time, making me even more frustrated and unhappy with what I had. Despite the fact that some people around me would think I was weird, as from their point of view I had gained this or that, even though they perceived it as something bigger than it was in reality. But in my mind, it wasn’t enough. All the time not what I theoretically wanted, because I couldn’t really get it.
The flash of intellect came when I had reached my 30s. To be honest, it turned out that I’ve got almost everything I really need. The only thing I regret now is wasting so much time, as the most important is here and now and not what I may not live to see.
That’s why, I started focusing only on the issues which are important for me here and now, as long as I can fulfill my dreams, the ones I desire the most. As long as I can change not only my life, but also the lives of the people around me, it’s certainly worth doing it.
What has the biggest value for me right now is:
– my family which I started appreciating quite recently;
– a small circle of good friends and close people around me;
– passion thanks to which I can constantly develop and improve the quality of my life.
These conclusions seem to be rather simple, but in my case it was a game-changing experience. Gratitude for what I have and what I will have in the future frees me of unnecessary bitterness, since I stopped imagining what could have possibly happened, and I focus on what I have and on how I can improve it.
Don’t be like me in the past, don’t create visions, which are better than reality, unless you are able to make them come true. Only if you can make them your own reality, the one you are a part of. Take good care of what’s here and now to gain what you desire most. Don’t put yourself down with what you can’t have, as most of the times it’s even not really worth it.
See you around!